your ex lover is dead.

It's been an eventful weekend. I love where I am in life right now. And I love that no matter what happens to me and no matter how bad life seems it always bounces back. There is never any time or any situation that lasts forever. And even though it may be sad that it's true for unbelievable happiness as well, the dark times don't last forever. And I hope anyone reading this that is in a dark place knows that it will get better again. It has to. It's the way the world works.

I can't wait for summer. I know it's still February but I am so excited. It's funny to think of the person I was last year or even last fall. I have come so far since then. I truly know who I am and I truly love it. And the cool thing about finding out who you are and loving it is it's so much easier. Everything is easier. You make friends easier, people like you better because they get to know the real you! And if they don't like it then find someone else who does. It really is simple. We complicate life so much when in reality you don't need to. Let go of people who don't love you and find people who do. There are all kinds of great people in the world that might be waiting for a friend like you.

Sorry I know I'm being ridiculously cheesy right now I am just blissfully happy. Everything happens for a reason. Fate and serendipity are watching over me. I know it. Things are falling in to place. And even though I'm really stressed with school right now and trying to get a job it's all gonna be okay. I know it. I'll get through it and if some things fall through the cracks it'll be fine. It's not the end of the world. In fact in a year I'm sure I'll be amazed at how far I've come again...these challenges are a part of life and I welcome them.

Seriously so happy right now. Just kinda feel like telling everyone I know and giving everyone hugs. I love all my friends and I am so grateful to the ones that have stayed by my side and the new ones I've been making along the way. 

Yes you can judge me for loving Katy Perry's new song. Also the lyrics in this video are kinda off but really this song makes me happy and I blast it in my car and belt it out. So judge away, I'm happy.

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New school year tomorrow. Bring it.

he's just not that into me

Don't be flattered that he misses you.  He  should miss you.  You're deeply missable.  However, he's still the same person who just broke up with you.  Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you.

Everyone wants to be loved and needed, particularly by the person who just broke up with us.  I understand.  What could be better than hearing from the man who just told you he didn't want you in his life anymore ... his sad, wistful, "I miss you so much" voice on the other end of the phone?  It's validating.  It's exciting.  It's irresistible.  But resist you must.

Cut your losses and don't waste your time .  Why stay in some weird dating limbo when you can move on to what will surely be better territory? Don't want to hear it?  Fine.  Here's the answer you're looking for, "Hang in there, baby.  He's not the loser everybody's telling you he is.  If you wait and keep your mouth shut and call at exactly the right time and anticipate his moods and have no expectations about communication or your own sexual needs, you can have him!"  But please don't be surprised if he dumps you or continues to drag you through a completely unsatisfying relationship.

My friends all say I should stop talking to him, but I think he misses me, and I like that.  I miss him.  I feel if I stay in touch with him, it will remind him of how great I am, and eventually he will realize that we should be together again. A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves.  If he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person ... if he's not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he's just not that into you.  Stop taking his calls and let him know what it's like to live without you.

Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision.  Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not long before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you and all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company.

God this book is so true. I seriously feel like someone wrote it just for me sometimes. I think this is like my 4th time reading it too and it hurts and it's hard to read sometimes because you really are convinced that this person really loved you, but I guess he didn't.

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I really needed this today.

I may print this out and hang it on my mirror or something. It's easy to forget these things and we as human beings don't tell each other enough how amazing we are and it kinda makes me sad.

You're beautiful and you matter.

[this applies to all the men out there who read my blog too, ha.]

it seems farther than ever before

Quote of the week: updated.

I can't wait til I can stop missing you :)

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Here's a little pick me-up for your Monday.

Right now…

1. A soldier of sorts is diligently fighting the fight so you don’t have to.
2. Someone who suffered from a severe injury last year is back on their feet.
3. A small group of people are building something that will soon make the impossible possible.
4. Somewhere on Earth a double rainbow is stretched from one end of the horizon to the other.
5. One of the next Billboard-chart-topping musical artists is patiently rehearsing in her garage.
6. A piece of literature is being written that will eventually change your perspective on life.
7. Young children all over the world are singing and dancing before they even realize there is anything that isn’t music.
8. A friend is helping a friend rise above thoughts of suicide.
9. Someone is thinking what you’re thinking, but hasn’t said anything yet either.
10. Two people in your hometown are falling in love.
11. Somewhere someone is admiring a breathtaking sunrise, and somewhere else a surreal sunset.
12. People of various religious backgrounds are in temples, churches, mosques and other places of worship praying, wholeheartedly, for world peace.
13. Someone who has struggled with their weight for the last several years is standing on a scale and smiling.
14. Hundreds of cute elderly couples are celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary.
15. A baby girl just took her first few steps without falling.
16. Two best friends are laughing so hard they aren’t even making any noise.
17. A future world leader is in grade school at recess.
18. Someone is in the process of sincerely forgiving a seemingly unforgivable act.
19. There’s a kid studying hard somewhere who aspires to get to where you are in life.
20. A firefighter is running into a burning building to rescue a perfect stranger.
21. Someone in your vicinity genuinely wants to be your friend.
22. A young mom is lying in a hospital bed and holding her newborn baby twins for the very first time.
23. Someone is taking a shower and singing happily at the top of their lungs.
24. There is someone out there who smiles when they think of a specific moment they once shared with you.
25. An alcoholic just celebrated one full year of sobriety.
26. Volunteers in major cities all over the world are working at homeless shelters caring for those who are less fortunate than themselves.
27. A young man is pulled over on the side of the road helping a young woman change a flat tire.
28. A high school athlete just broke her own personal record.
29. Two teenagers just received their very first kiss ever from each other.
30. A husband and wife who were drowning in debt five years ago proudly hold a balance of zero on their credit cards.
31. Someone is hugging a friend who desperately needs it.
32. A new small business owner just wrapped up his first profitable year working for himself.
33. A grandfather is holding his granddaughter’s hand and they’re both smiling from ear to ear.
34. Someone just placed their spare change in the charity collection cup at the grocery store.
35. A small group of friends are sitting around a table sharing funny stories and cheerfully reminiscing about the good old days.
36. A breast cancer patient just found out her cancer is in complete remission.
37. Someone out there is missing you and looking forward to your next visit.
38. Honest people are working for various government entities to help protect your basic human rights and civil liberties.
39. An emergency room surgeon is in the middle of saving his patient’s life.
40. Someone is holding the door open for the person behind them.

Right now is a new beginning. Right now is an opportunity.

Do something extraordinary.

Source: marcandangel.com

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Awesome thought:

The right guy is out there right now, wondering when he's going meet someone just like you.

true story.

As a writer I have to say I agree...ha.

Quote of the week: updated.

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I’ve really needed this list lately. It’s reminded me that life is full of simple everyday pleasures.

Also, I’ve been really wanting a tattoo lately and I don’t even know why.

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In case you were wondering...

My brother and nephew were evacuated along with several other Americans to Istanbul, Turkey yesterday. They have finally had much needed sleep and relaxation and are hoping to be reunited with the rest of the family in DC soon.

They also made it on Yahoo!

Now I can fully support the Egyptians in their protests for freedom without worrying about my family. Yay.

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I did it!

Day 50: List of what always makes you happy

Ahhhhhhh I thought this day would never come but it is finally day fifty.

Woo.

Things that always make me happy

1. Good friends
2. Going to the airport
3. Laughing
4. Getting letters
5. Memories
6. Star gazing
7. Singing in the car
8. Hugs
9. Dance parties with Katy
10. Ice cream
11. The rain and leaving the windows open when it’s raining
12. Laying in the grass on a summer night
13. Journals
14. Coffee
15. Road trips
16. Chocolate
17. Fries in a frosty
18. Pie and cake
19. Christmas
20. Familiar smells
21. Understanding math
22. Sleeping in
23. Massages
24. Watching the ocean
25. Finding money I didn’t know I had
26. When people find me funny
27. Ice cold coke when you’re really thirsty
28. Pull through parking spots
29. Sushi
30. Catching up with old friends and realizing nothing has changed
31. People watching
32. Baby animals
33. Disney movies
34. Finishing your last exam
35. Anything that’s free
36. City lights at night
37. Love
38. Look out spots
39. The feeling of freedom
40. Realizing that you’re kind of beautiful sometimes ha
41. The moment before you kiss someone for the first time
42. Coming home
43. Watching the sunrise after staying up all night talking to someone you love
44. London
45. Flirting
46. S’mores
47. New clothes
48. Daffodils poking through the snow in springtime
49. Dressing up
50. New (and old) book smell

I think I’ll stick with 50. Ahhhh so glad to be done with this haha love you all. And I’m giving myself a new layout to celebrate woo.

favorite post ever? yes…

Day 16: Provide pictures of 5 celebrity crushes

Oh celebrity crushes. How will I manage to just pick five?! Hahaha this will seriously limit me. I may have to throw in some honorable mentions.

1) Chace Crawford

I think I’ve been in love with Chace Crawford since the moment I saw him on the pilot episode of Gossip Girl. While many of my friends are obsessed with Penn Badgley or Ed Westwick, I’ve always been a Chace girl.

2) Shannon Kook-Chun

K, this is probably just my Asian obsession and I know no one knows who he is other than people who still watch Degrassi but he is so. effing. hot. I can’t even communicate it to you haha. Sadly, he’s rarely even on Degrassi. I pretty much only watch the theme song so I can see him and I occasionally forget what I’m talking about when he appears on screen. Shut up Ed haha. Also, finding a decent picture of him was pretty hard BUT he is gorgeous I promise. I probably should’ve written my letter yesterday to him cuz I think I’d die if I met him.

3) Jude Law

Do I even need to explain this one? There is nothing about this man that isn’t sexy. Except when he cheated on his wife but he has a beautiful accent so that almost makes up for it haha jk.

4) Harry Shum Jr.

He has to have a shirtless and a normal picture hahahaha.

This is my other Asian obsession. Uhhhh seriously this guy is gorgeous. He makes my heart sing for Glee hahaha see what I did there? No but really, I keep feeling like Glee is going downhill and then I see this guy and I don’t complain anymore. And he’s like the best dancer ever. I think I would also die if I met him. Loooove him.

5) James Roday

Duh. Shawn Spencer. That is all.

Honorable Mention:

Shaun White

Ryan Gosling

Leonardo DiCaprio

and

Enrique

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Day Thirteen – Whatever tickles your fancy

Hmm…what tickles my fancy today? Great question.

I’m actually kinda feeling a little ill so I don’t think I’ll do much writing. I think I’ll leave you guys with some things I found on the internet this week that made me smile

(prolly have to click that one to view it better, ha)

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