stolen from jill.

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to 10 Different People (but don't say their name):
1. I wish I could do more to help you. You've been such a good friend to me and you don't deserve all the terrible things that have happened to you in your life.
2. I think you're an idiot. I wish you never pushed me away. I feel like the only person in the world who wants to help you and you're denying yourself of it. You've brought this upon yourself. I still love you though, despite everything. I wish I knew you still cared. I wish you'd talk to me. You broke your promise. You ended up just like him.
3. I miss you. You were my best friend. You knew me better than anyone. I've really needed you these past few weeks but I've been too afraid to reach out. I'm too afraid that you'll leave me again.
4. I really wish you weren't doing this. I know you think it'll make you happy, but I don't want to see you get hurt. You mean a lot to me.
5. I meant it when I said I don't know what I'd do without you. You've been there with me through so much and I think we've always had a special bond...I guess you knew that too. I'm still shocked about everything but the fact that it's you makes it a lot less scary.
6. I know you worry about me, but I promise I'm going to be fine. I'm still the same girl you always knew, now I just get to be honest.
7. I'm so glad we're friends. You make me laugh like no other and we've gotten really close really quickly. I know you feel the same way about me and it's fantastic. I think we'll be friends for a long time. If we can get through all this we can get through anything.
8. You annoy the living hell out of me.
9. I hate your boyfriend. I hope you don't end up together, please you're so much better than that.
10. I probably take our friendship for granted a lot but you've always been there for me. More so than anyone else, even when I call you at 3 in the morning bawling or because I can't sleep. Thanks for being so sweet.

Nine Things About Myself:
1. I am left handed.
2. I'm lactose intolerant but believe ice cream is always worth the pain.
3. Taurus and proud.
4. I would love to run away and not tell a soul.
5. I want to be a cat that lives in a bookstore in my next life.
6. I've kissed eleven people.
7. I could eat Thai, Indian, and sushi for every meal and be extremely happy.
8. London is my favorite city.
9. I'm in love with Bradley Cooper.

Eight Ways To Win My Heart:
1. Honesty.
2. Make me laugh.
3. Endless conversations.
4. Proving that you'll stick around.
5. Going on fun/spontaneous/random/awesome adventures.
6. The little things (ie holding my hand, i love yous, compliments)
7. Letting me meet your family and friends. It means a lot.
8. Not giving up on me when I'm stubborn.

Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:
1. You.
2. Money.
3. Traveling.
4. My family and friends.
5. Naps.
6. How much I want another dog.
7. Song lyrics.

Six Things I Do Before Falling Asleep
1. Put pajamas on.
2. Brush teeth.
3. Take make up off.
4. Check facebook and twitter.
5. Text.
6. Think about stuff and hope that I can fall asleep that night.

Five People Who Mean a Lot:
1. Katy
2. My parents.
3. The rest of my family.
4. My Georgey Shore family
5. My other amazing friends.

Four Things I'm Wearing:
1. Pink and white striped shirt I got for my birthday.
2. Jean shorts.
3. Silver bow earrings.
4. Socks.

Three Songs I Listen to Often (this summer):
1. Fools Like Me - Vanessa Carlton
2. She (For Liz) - Parachute
3. Wayy too many Taylor Swift songs

Two Things I Want to Do Before I Die:
1. See the Northern Lights while in a hot tub.
2. Live on the coast of Maine

One Confession:
1. 

So the unpleasant Christmas surprise is that I've gained like 12 pounds. Probably from all the sushi I've been eating lately. Joke.

But really now, I have to lose like 20 pounds now so this is baaaad. Well, I mostly need to get into shape. Which sucks. And I'm not waiting til New Year's this is starting now.

I've been wanting to write something with substance on this blog but for some reason there is a mental road block right now. I guess I should be honest with you and say that I actually have an alternate blog that is more like a diary. Only a handful of people know the site's address and there is a log in required but it exists. I wonder sometimes if that's part of why I can't write things I'd write there here because it's so sectioned off in my head it's like I can't do it.

I don't know, I think I'm just rambling now. Well I need to get some sleep. I'll try again tomorrow.

I fail at writing on here.

But this is what you should know about my June life ha.

- Telethon was a major success. This is my mom's like 8th year doing it or something? I don't know. But they raised $2.6 mil for Primary Children's which was a miracle in and of itself.
- Scottie the Hottie/Scotty dog got his mission call which I blogged about.
- Went to Hilton Head with part of the fam. Which I also blogged about.
- I haven't been watching the World Cup as religiously as I watched the Olympics but lets be honest...Canada isn't in the World Cup so therefore it isn't as cool hahaha totally kidding. But my other favorite country England, epic failed which was sad.
- I've been hanging out with Chelsea, Ed, and Truong. Especially Truong. We are becoming best friends. Sushi date was a major highlight probably. So funny.
- My brother and his family are here from Egypt. They just got here on Friday night so I've been hanging out with them a little bit which has been wonderful.
- Pie Wednesday...nuff said.
- Still searching for a job...I kinda stopped for awhile because I knew my trip was coming up but I guess I need to start looking again. Kinda sucks.
- Trying to write things that I'm proud of again...I've been lacking inspiration though meh.

I think that's basically it. I can't believe June is almost over. This is weird.