Sometimes I wonder if I'm a defective human being and perhaps there's another me somewhere else that's doing much better with my characteristics and personality flaws than I could ever begin to. I kinda hope there is actually. It'd be nice to know that someone can make this work. I've had a very long past couple of days. A lot of things have gone wrong and I guess that's what always happens when you start feeling good about things right?
Well I started that entry on June 2nd and I think things are getting a bit better. Summer isn't my best time for blogging I've come to notice. A lot has happened since I last wrote. It seems to be a recurring thing that the times when I need to write the most seem to be when I have the least motivation. It never used to be that way and hopefully I can break through this mental block. Honestly I have been thinking a lot about how much my writing has suffered lately. I can pinpoint it to a singular event too and I know I need to get past it, it's just really difficult. This past semester I had a professor who was a real douche. There's really not a better way to put it, but in short he basically ruined my confidence and made me feel like a terrible writer. I guess I've just been second guessing everything since. Maybe I'll feel better now that I've got that out into the open but it's been weighing on my mind for some time.
I'll try to update this a little bit more this week while I'm on vacation, I just thought I'd post this blog that I started a week or so ago.
Love you all, thanks for caring.