i was in the darkness, so darkness i became.

I have a playlist of four songs...in case you were wondering what I've been listening to on repeat all day. In my car and in my room. While writing poetry. It's fantastic.

Florence + The Machine - Cosmic Love



Mumford and Sons - Home



Birdy - Skinny Love



James Morrison - Pieces Don't Fit Anymore




Yup, I'm obviously single...

september obsessions.

Alright so I'm creatively blocked and super bored so we're gonna have a cop out blog and have some September obsessions! Woooo.





1) Foster the People


Except I really don't like Pumped Up Kicks. I do love this song though. So much.

2) Taco Bell Chicken Flatbread Sandwiches


Umm these are only 99 cents. And they're actually delicious. I am not ashamed hahaha.

3) Catcher in the Rye


I tried reading this book before my junior year(?) of high school and I absolutely hated it. I decided to cop out and just read the Spark Notes but I was assigned to read it for my Adolescent Lit class and I absolutely love it. It's up there in my favorite books now. If you hated the book in high school I recommend you try rereading it. Or if you haven't read it you should give it a try. It's a very polarizing book and it seems like you either really hate it or really love it but yeah. Holden Caulfield ♥

4) Gray nail polish


This one to be exact! Break a Leg-Warmer. Haha I love it. It's Sephora by OPI.

i'm shining like fireworks over your sad empty town.

Oh hi. Yeah I still suck at blogging.

Here's some things I love lately:

Astrology

So I've always been intrigued by astrology but my bff Josh White has gotten me more into it (as well as most of my friends). It's hilarious, we have these deep cons about how our signs are the best and how we interact with each other. They may not be worth basing your whole life off of or anything but they're pretty interesting and can seem surprisingly accurate at times.

Dear Photograph

I don't know if you guys have heard of this website but I recently found it and I think it's sooo cool/cute/awesome. Basically you take a picture of yourself holding a picture. If that doesn't make any sense then you should check it out and see for yourself haha.

Listening to songs with amazing lyrics that I used to love

Yeah this one is weirdly specific but I recently started listening to some old bands that I used to be obsessed with back in middle school and their lyrics are still amazing. I will always love Brand New, Something Corporate, and Bright Eyes. Also Panic! At the Disco's first album is pretty great to blast in your car when you're feeling a little angry hahaha.

Bingo

Nuff said. Also I'm totes doing that college bingo when school starts. Ha.

Love Culture

I was looking for new places to buy cute clothes for school and happened upon this website! I had never heard of it before but it's super cute and they have a store opening at City Creek in 2012! Yay. I bought the cardigan above and also another striped cardigan. I'm a sucker for them what can I say?

Cheers.

i love when jersey shore comes back...

Because then this happens:

Also this happens:

and this

Sorry I have sucked at updating lately...I've been super busy. I'd tell you the details but yeah not really blog worthy. Anyway I'm off to see a movie with my two cute Leo boys, I'll give you a better update later I promise.

Ciao bitches.

without you i'm a liner stranded in an ice floe

I still love this song.



"Stop For A Minute"
(feat. K'naan)

[Keane]
Some days, feel my soul has left my body
Feel I'm floating high above me
Like I'm looking down upon me

Start sinking, every time I get to thinking
It's easier to keep on moving
Never stop to let the truth in

[K'naan]
Sometimes I feel like it's all been done
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one
Sometimes I wanna change everything I've ever done
I'm too tired to fight and yet too scared to run

[Keane]
And if I stop for a minute
I think about things I really don't wanna know
And I'm the first to admit it
Without you I'm a liner stranded in an ice floe

[K'naan]
I feel like a thief who has no faith
Maybe more than by the grade
Of the drugs you took that day

Sinking in the pain he's been inflicting
Yet he's feeling like the victim
Just a horoscope's to blame

[Keane]
Sometimes I feel like a little lost child
Sometimes I feel like the chosen one
Sometimes I wanna shout out 'til everything goes quiet
Sometimes I wonder why I was ever born

And if I stop for a minute
I think about things really I don't wanna know
And I'm the first to admit it
Without you I'm child and so wherever you go
I will follow

[K'Naan - rap]
One... yeah...
And baby you are just beautiful from crown to your cuticles
You held down my two sons, you never frown when duty calls
You know me, I gave you more than you can handle
But you still keep a handle on it, even when I take something beautiful and vandal on it
No more females? Well how come my emails got notes on a scandal
It's like Eve with the apple,
A priest in the chapel
Overcome by the devil's tackle
I'm still shackled the bad til I know
I'm such a hassle every time I let my thoughts go
I get baffled so I hardly pause
I just crossed seas with these gnarly broads
Cos it hurts me just to see what I finally lost
So I guess I'm just a fiend
Consumed by the scene
The stage and the screens
Where it's just me and Keane

[Keane]
And if I stop for a minute
I think about things I really don't wanna know
[K'naan]
So I guess I'm just a fiend
Consumed by the scene
[Keane]
And I'm the first to admit it
Without you I'm a liner stranded in an ice floe
[K'naan]
The stage and the screens
Where it's just me and Keane

i won't rescue you to just desert me.

oh hello May.

I forgot to say hello to my favorite month of the year! Not just because it's my birthday month (which it is) but because it's when Utah finally starts to cooperate and act like springtime. It's beautiful and I absolutely love it.

In other news, I really really want these shirts and they are only 10 dollars right now. Whaaaat?

I can't decide between the green or the pink...oops.

Aren't they all adorbs? And only 10 bucks at ae.com

I might have to splurge for them all ha! Oh wait...I do have a birthday coming up ;)

this week's obsession?

With gems like that how can you not visit this website and love it?? Ha.

i.love.you.

Three words that became hard to say...

I and love and you.

Gives me chills.

latest obsession.

I just want to live in this music video. It's so beautiful.

And I absolutely love this song. Thanks Rhi.

The Band Perry - If I Die Young

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I’ve never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I’m a goner
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I've been singin’
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh


The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need 'em oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls

ha.

my one true love...

I completely agree with this picture. People who don't want to travel or see this beautiful Earth that we are so fortunate to live on are crazy and I want nothing to do with them.

I was born to travel. My whole life has been sprinkled with traveling. I was lucky enough to be born to parents who have the means to let us travel quite often. My grandpa was in the Air Force while my dad was growing up so my dad has moved quite a bit. I honestly can't even remember all the places he's lived growing up but I know he lived in Indiana, Texas, England, Germany, Utah, the Philippines and probably other places I've forgotten. Since then he was also in the Air Force for a bit after my parents were married and they lived in Turkey, Germany, and Washington before settling in Utah. I guess you could say traveling is in my blood and something that I'm used to and kind of expect. The airport is almost like my second home, I get so excited every time I drive out there. I'm not a huge fan of the Salt Lake airport but I still love it because of the feelings of anticipation and excitement I get when I go there or the feelings of peace and comfort when I come home to the beautiful SLC skyline and my favorite mountains.

I've had some of my most life changing and maturing experiences while traveling. The summer after my sophomore year of high school I went to Europe for a couple weeks with a group from my school. It was the first time I had really traveled without my family and I learned so much about myself. I honestly know without a doubt I would be a completely different person without the things I have witnessed while traveling. It has made me cultured and appreciative of the freedoms I enjoy in America as well as just appreciating the beautiful world around us. There is so much to see and feel, so many people to meet, and so much to learn.

On that note, I've been in Utah wayy too long. I haven't left the state since last summer and I feel like I'm suffocating. I have never gone this long without some kind of trip being planned. The only thing I have for awhile is random trips to St George which hardly feed my addiction and then South Carolina in the summer like usual.

I need to explore but I have no money to do so. This is one of the worst feelings for me.

My Silver Medallion membership might be expiring soon too. Wonder how many Sky Miles I have... ;)

& i wonder if i ever cross your mind...

I officially:

-Suck at school, supposed to be writing an essay and don't even understand the topic

-Love Glee. Didn't think I could love it anymore but I doooo.

-Need sleep. I'm losing my mind from the stress of needing to write this essay and not knowing how mixed with loving Glee and a long car ride home today.

Oh and not giving a crap about the Superbowl was hard work.

Ha joke.

Anyway I should get off this stupid blog.

I looooove this boy. I made it Twitter official. So he basically officially thinks I'm a crazy stalker.

Today is World Nutella Day!

So eat some! It's delicious.

Also I'd update further but I'm in St George and my internet isn't working for some reason.

awards season.

Ahhhhh Golden Globes.

I don't know if everyone knows this but I looove tv and movies. So awards shows are so exciting for me.

I was so thrilled about Chris Colfer's win as well as Colin Firth's.

Those ones made my night.

Also, I want Olivia Wilde's dress.

More photos and a picture of her beautiful shoes here:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/01/16/olivia-wilde-golden-globes-2011_n_809757.html

well i for one love donuts.

I did it!

Day 50: List of what always makes you happy

Ahhhhhhh I thought this day would never come but it is finally day fifty.

Woo.

Things that always make me happy

1. Good friends
2. Going to the airport
3. Laughing
4. Getting letters
5. Memories
6. Star gazing
7. Singing in the car
8. Hugs
9. Dance parties with Katy
10. Ice cream
11. The rain and leaving the windows open when it’s raining
12. Laying in the grass on a summer night
13. Journals
14. Coffee
15. Road trips
16. Chocolate
17. Fries in a frosty
18. Pie and cake
19. Christmas
20. Familiar smells
21. Understanding math
22. Sleeping in
23. Massages
24. Watching the ocean
25. Finding money I didn’t know I had
26. When people find me funny
27. Ice cold coke when you’re really thirsty
28. Pull through parking spots
29. Sushi
30. Catching up with old friends and realizing nothing has changed
31. People watching
32. Baby animals
33. Disney movies
34. Finishing your last exam
35. Anything that’s free
36. City lights at night
37. Love
38. Look out spots
39. The feeling of freedom
40. Realizing that you’re kind of beautiful sometimes ha
41. The moment before you kiss someone for the first time
42. Coming home
43. Watching the sunrise after staying up all night talking to someone you love
44. London
45. Flirting
46. S’mores
47. New clothes
48. Daffodils poking through the snow in springtime
49. Dressing up
50. New (and old) book smell

I think I’ll stick with 50. Ahhhh so glad to be done with this haha love you all. And I’m giving myself a new layout to celebrate woo.

when a man grows tired of london, he grows tired of life

Day 43: A picture of your favorite place in the world

I have done a fair amount of traveling in my 19 years on earth and of the countries I’ve been to and states I’ve visited London is by far my all-time favorite place in the world.

I have been there three times in my life and it is not nearly enough. I definitely want to live there at some point. It is perfection.

foggy

Day 34: Your favorite quote

Ha. Favorite quote. I don’t think you understand that I have tons and tons of word documents full of quotes saved on my laptop.

So I’ll just pick a couple that I like in particular for this day…

"the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones
who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved,
desirous of everything at the same time, the ones
who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but
burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles
exploding like spiders across the stars."
-Jack Kerouac

I told you I'd leave a light on in case you ever wanted to come back home. You smiled and said you appreciate the gesture. I took your every word to heart cause I can't stand us being apart. And just to show you how much I really miss you, every light in the house is on. The backyard's bright as the crack of dawn. The front walk looks like runway lights. It's kind of like noon in the dead of night. Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone, every light in the house is on.

In other news,

Tree delivery went extremely well today. The fastest it’s ever gone and the easiest. Also first year I’ve done it without Isaac which was really annoying and weird but it’s fiiiine.

Day 31: Favorite books

The Perks of Being a Wallflower has been my favorite book since 8th grade when my good friend Kaylee recommended it to me. I don’t really want this to turn into a book review because you could type the title of the book into Google and achieve the same effect so I’ll leave you with this. This book is incredible. I am 100% sure anyone can relate to it to some extent and I think that is why it’s so powerful.

Also, they’re turning it into a movie and I am livid. I don’t think I’m ever gonna get over it. I really believe this book is not one you can turn into a movie, but I digress.

Just read it if you haven’t.